Book 2 Chapter 6: The Encounter

       Winston has been waiting to meet the famous O' Brien for tremendous time now. He has dreamed several time of meeting O' Brien and have an encounter with him. Winston has even spoken to Julia in previous times of his dreams and how he expects his encounter with O' Brien to be. But now, there was O' Brien standing "face to face, and it seemed that his only impulse was to run away. His heart bounded violently. He would have been incapable of speaking. O' Brien, however, had continued forward in the same movement, laying a friendly hand for a moment on Winston's arm, so that the two of them were walking side by side. He began speaking with the peculiar grave courtesy that differentiated him from the majority of Inner Party members." Winston realized that he was risking a lot by talking and having this encounter with O' Brien. Winston was perfectly conscious that his action would lead him most like to death. Winston had a good long conversation with O' Brien. O' Brien seemed to play a role, a role of undercover party member- he acted as to be against the party as Winston but cared deeply about the party and was eager to help the party. I believe that with the encounter that Winston is having with O' Brien specially by taking an address too his home, Winston is digging his own grave. As I said in the latter O' Brien gave Winston a paper with his address to go get a dictionary - vocabulary the power to knowledge which the government wanted to restrict. But what a coincidence that the paper with the address was given to Winston in front of the telescreens where it was easily visible yet nothing occurred. Winston though was conscious what he was doing as clearly stated "The end was contained in the beginning. But it was frightening: or, more exactly, it was like a foretaste of death, like being a little less alive. Even while he was speaking to O' Brien, when the meaning of the words had sunk in, a chilly shuddering feeling had taken possession of his body. He had the sensation of stepping into the dampness of a grave, and it was not much better because he had always known that the grave was there and waiting for him." Winston's admiration and wish for his encounter with O' Brien was stronger than that of his knowledge of the consequences that his action were going to bring upon him. He decides to accept his fate of death due to his thrill of having an encounter with O' Brien. Winston knew this though since the day he first wrote in his diary- his days of thought crime and rebellion against the party had begun.

Book 2 Chapter 5: The Room

       Winston is becoming increasingly obsessed with the room that he has rented as personal use with Julia, more like a love nest. Winston is beginning to feel a desperate need for Julia. Winston even dreams of Katherine dying, that would allow him to marry Julia and have happy life along side with Julia. They see each other and meet in the room laying side by side on a stripped bed under the open window, naked for the sake of coolness. They do not mind all the filth, the rat that had came out or even all the bugs because their desire to have sex or make love was greater than anything. They begin talking about the brotherhood, and Winston makes a comment about his strong connection with he shares with O' Brien and Julia's answer surprises Winston somewhat. 'Not much, perhaps. But it was evidence. It might have planted a few doubts here and there, supposing that I'd dared to show it to anybody. I don't imagine that we can alter anything in our own lifetime. But one can imagine little knots of resistance springing up here and there -- small groups of people banding themselves together, and gradually growing, and even leaving a few records behind, so that the next generations can carry on where we leave off.'  'I'm not interested in the next generation, dear. I'm interested in us.'  'You're only a rebel from the waist downwards,' he told her. Julia really had no understanding of what Winston was trying to explain to her. She was very confused on the point of the story and why Winston was telling her the story of Jones, Aaronson, and Rutherford and the momentous slip of paper which he had once held between his fingers. 'Winston had dropped his habit of drinking gin at all hours. He seemed to have lost the need for it. He had grown fatter, his varicose ulcer had subsided, leaving only a brown stain on the skin above his ankle, his fits of coughing in the early morning had stopped.' All of the sex with Julia and his 'love' for Julia had Winston changing. They where beginning to doubt that they would get caught as stated, 'Now that they had a secure hiding-place, almost a home, it did not even seem a hardship that they could only meet infrequently and for a couple of hours at a time.' This confidence that they where beginning to have as a result of the secureness that they felt shows a weakness, a vulnerable point where due to there unawareness they could get caught. This foreshadows in a way that they willl get caught and will go through a series of issues.

Book 2 Chapter 4: The Room

       At this point in the book Winston and Julia have seen each other and had affairs several times. They have been busy with the preparations for Hate Week and have not seen each other for a bit now. Winston has rented a small room above Mr. Charrington’s shop, for the single reason of using it as a love nest for himself and Julia. He walks around in the room thinking and desperate for some time with Julia who has not been able to do nothing due to her period as well. Winston at this point wishes to have a more settle life with Julia, like that of a married couple. In the room they see a rat which end up scaring Winston more than Julia due to Winston's fear of rats which is greater than his fear for anything else. After that Julia sees a paper weight in which she asks about. Winston claims that it is a link to the past, and the chapter concludes with him looking at the paper weight imagining him living with Julia in an eternal stasis.
       I believe that this room is going to lead Julia and Winston to have issues and end up badly. I believe this because the room is located on top of a shop and in the beginning of the chapter there is a red armed women. Winston is beginning to give great importance to the room for it is his love nest to use with Julia. Winston  is starting to feel a necessity to have affairs with Julia as shown through his action and emotions. Winston feels a desperate need to be with Julia and to corrupt and a go against the party. They are beginning to get too comfortable with having affairs right under the parties noses. The more comfortable they are the more reckless and careless they are leaving them an easier target for the thought police to catch.
       Winston is letting his desire for affairs and time with Julia let his guard down. In the beginning of the chapter it says that Winston "was violently angry. During the month that he had known her the nature of his desire for her had changed. At the beginning there had been little true sensuality in it. Their first love-making had been simply an act of the will. But after the second time it was different. The smell of her hair, the taste of her mouth, the feeling of her skin seemed to have got inside him, or into the air all round him. She had become a physical necessity, something that he not only wanted but felt that he had a right to. When she said that she could not come, he had the feeling that she was cheating him. But just at this moment the crowd pressed them together and their hands accidentally met. She gave the tips of his fingers a quick squeeze that seemed to invite not desire but affection. Julia on the other hand tries more to assure that they are not to get caught.

Clandestine Affairs

       In the book of 1984 the greatest affair is between Winston and Julia. Many people claim that between Julia and Winston there is a relationship based on love because of how many times they claimed their love and the risk they shared to see each other. The reality is that their so called "love" is based on their idea of going against the government. Winston and Julia's relationship is based on the single purpose of going against the party. This is seen in book 2 chapter 2 in the following text:

       'Have you done this before?' 

       'Of course. Hundreds of times -- well scores of times anyway.' 

       'With Party members.' 

       'Yes, always with Party members.' 

       'With members of the Inner Party?' 

       'Not with those swine, no. But there's plenty that would if they got half a chance. They're not so holy as they make out.' 

        'His heart leapt. Scores of times she had done it'

       The latter shoes Winston's "love" for Julia is based on how many affairs she has had and how corrupt she is. The more men she has slept with, the more corrupt people exist that go against the party. That makes Winston happy knowing that he is not the only one who disagrees and goes against the party. Along with Winston's perspective, Julia explained to Winston that the reason why she gave him the letter was because she saw the difference in his face that gave away he was against the party and she loved that. Their affair depended on how far they could get away with going against the party. They wanted to corrupt as many people possible, not worrying about the consequences. All that led to the corruption of the people was good and made their "love" grow greater.

Book 2 Chapter 2: The deed

       In chapter two of book two Winston and the dark haired girl, who says her name is Julia, meet in the country where together they head out in to the woods. They share some chocolate and tell each other how they felt about each other. In the woods Julia tears off her Junior Anti-Sex League sash and they make love which he finds identical to the sexual encounter in which he had dreamed of. Julia had done this before in multiple occasions which to Winston is a form of relief, since this means that he is not the only person in the society committing thought crime. Winston compares to society as a whole when it comes to the idea his form of relief. Many people look at others faults to cover their own faults as a way of relief to make them feel better about their mistakes. In multiple occasions that can lead too further issues of much greater consequences. Sometimes one commits so many "mistakes" that they accumulate to the point where there is no way to hide them. In that case one is open for everyone to see all of your wrongs. Winston is committing all of these wrongs which keep adding up making him a greater thought criminal. If the party finds out of these thing Winston could cause issues not only for himself but for others who are involved. No matter how safe and how much you cover the wrong doings there is a point where someone has to know. Winston is little by little turning himself in to the thought police though all of the wrongs he is committing. The idea of doing something wrong makes one guilty and insecure as Winston is with all the cameras and microphones that the party has. Guilt and insecurities lead to mistakes and mistakes made are tracks left for the thought police to trace to come to the conclusion of who is doing wrong. Winston in this chapter is only sure that he is not the only one committing thought crime and that Julia is not a spy, but on the other hand he is insecure about how things could go by doing the things that he is doing. When someone feels comfortable with the wrongs that one is doing you tend to keep doing it; it is very likely for Winston to meet with Julia again or for this event to come back to haunt him. Winston and Julia see that having sex is the ultimate way to strike the party in their own way. The Party has such great control over everything, that Winston can think of nothing, not even sex, except whether it supports or harms the Party in any way.

Book 2 Chapter 1: The desire

       In this chapter Winston believes at first that the dark haired girl is a spy until she gives him a paper or a note saying that she loves him. From that moment forward he began questioning himself about whether she was a spy or she was actually interested in him. After a couple days they are able to sit at a table together and make plans to meet. They struggle some to meed due to the telescreens in which they hid from. They were only able to hold hands but planned to see each other in a different place. Even though what they were  doing what against the law and several would consider impossible it is all a matter of desire. When you want or desire something no matter what people categorize it whether is easy, hard, possible or impossible it is just a matter how much you actually desire it. The more you desire the more you will be willing to put at stake to accomplish it. Anything and everything is possible it is just a matter of one self and how much you are willing to risk and push to accomplish. Everyone tends to give up or not even try certain things due to lack of desire not because they are actually impossible. the only reason that people tend to not try is because of their lack in confidence; lack of knowledge scares people into giving up before even starting something. A good example of this is Winston with the dark haired girl. Winston did not know whether the dark haired girl was a spy or not making him uncertain on how to respond and act in front of her. When he finally found out what she felt and that she was not a spy, he immediately felt a powerful desire to live as he was lost without purpose of living. Their desire for each other led them to go against the law and plan to see each other and spend time together. They knew that their love was something "impossible" due to the law, but that did not mean that they had to give up. They did the complete opposite, they tried planning to meet not quitting, because they were willing to risk all for their love. The latter shows that nothing is really impossible it is just a matter of how much you willing to risk for what you desire. As Barack Obama said "The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won't. It's whether you let it harden or shame you into inaction, or whether you learn from it; whether you choose to persevere." Keep pushing and if you desire something at a great level you will accomplish it no matter how hard or impossible it is.